The Title Escapes Me

Have you ever sat down and committed yourself? To a bottle of pink champagne?

This is the perfect compliment to such an evening. Follow the link and click on the middle picture. I don't really know who she is but her voice and the pictures are...ahhh....and yes, the Eiffel tower at night is simply--magic. Even when it is 'only' glowing, its breathtaking. But when it twinkles, oh when it twinkles, there are no breaths to take. Those pictures never turn out. I'm inclined to believe its because the beauty of it just cannot be caputred--its something ones eyes must be personally privy to.

But the glow is enough for now...

Aaaaand This Is It Folks

When I finally forced myself to lay in bed last night (this morning. no, yesterday morning) at 5am my mind was still swirling with things I wanted to tweak/add here. Now I sit here, $18 lighter thanks to two movies in one night--yes, I know. Mad Money and 27 Dresses. And yes. I know. I'm surprised myself. Though when I get in a movie mode, I always want more. Mostly its with action films that I'll go straight to Blockbuster for another fix, post-credit roll. I can't say I've ever been to two seperate theatres in one night though. Ah, I was just happy to spend time with friends and it happened to be watching girly movies. Now watch, I'll have fit "so much" (right) into one night that there won't be an occassion to do anything for the next three months. Thats just how it goes.

So anyway, my mind isn't really in an expansive, composition-ready place. All I've got keep me company since the thoughts are gone are MSNBC Prisions, this light box and my new socks (and of course my little animal). I really like these socks--I've been wanting a fun pair of knee highs and GAP is having a fabulous sale. I won't bore you with all of my finds, but suffice it to say great deals provide the best type of retail therapy.
h-o-t pink ;-)
Go to the sale. You'll be happy you did. Really. Who doesn't appreciate cable-knit sweaters and fun argyle socks for next to nothing? You know you do. The inner-cape-cod-wanna-be-vacationer is nodding yes. I see her/him.

From One Falling Star to Another: Pretty Yellows and Black Mines.

Written so many years before I was even a twinkle in an eye. And yet it is one of my very first memories. A little girl turning the key, and a patient Grandmother teaching her the lyrics. The rough ceramic of the base and the bird and the cold metal cage. I used to sit there with that music figurine, entranced by it, wondering what the story really was. Many a time I have found myself, through various stages and places and ages, humming its seemingly bright-but really just so-sad melody.

Surprised and momentarily shocked to happen across a variation as a t-shirt and a wall 'painting'. The bird is perfect: a little yellow canary, just as it should be. The only thing missing is the gild. The title too is off, but ironically so.

She's Only a Bird in a Gilded Cage vs. A Caged Bird Dreams.

It seems more of an extension--a 107 year post-script.

Always have been aware of the lyrics. But this P.S. drives them a little more home.

"All is not golde that glistereth." But sometimes, sometimes, it is.

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I found myself jealous tonight--the first time in so very long. Sick. Thats the only word I've got for it. Exasperated because I can't figure it out. Well, on the other end. For once I can fully figure myself out, at least as far as my understanding goes. I simply wish I knew how to be seen. But not with the eyes. I don't even mean "seen". Repulsed. But still desirous. Or, to understand as though you do. Or could. Or can. Or...or...or..."This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”--J.K.

Cancelled My Appearences Today

"Even if you happen to be taking the day off, your mind is still probably lingering on serious matters. These are rather busy times for you and you need to make the most of your energy while you have it. Consider the foundations you are building for the entire year ahead. A bit of practical thinking today could pay off in the days and weeks ahead."


"I expect you to live there". No pressure. I'm not just doing it for her. Really, its all about me. And I know it may not be fair, but you think of it more than it is. And life itsn't fair anyway.

The Two Are Exactly the Same. But Polar Opposites.

Its so odd being here, when nothing seems to know where its at.
Spring flowers are blooming but the seasonal trees are loosing their leaves.
Both are set agianst a backdrop of static evergreen and a gentle sun that rises late and sets early.
The smell of the dead leaves conjures up images of glowing pumpkins and approaching holidays, which is confusing when directly below the blossoms believe it is indeed spring, making their presence known by fragrant bursts they feel necessary to interject.
The temperature doesn't help. It too is unsure, so much so that its frozen in the only range that is fitting for both seasons.
And its January. It can be neither.
And yet its both.
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What a wonder its so doubly fitting for the day. I rocked it in class though, especially because everyone's first reaction was a firm "What? No" and when they let their minds open ever so slightly they realized I was spot on. I love giving the opportunity for "aHa"s.

Chrysalis-Exigency

Golden Shell. Oh if you knew what lay beneath. Solid or hollow. Your call. Or mine.



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Suddenly suffocated by the thought of it never being the same again. Grasping to find something concrete because I foolishly let it slip by at the moment in vain hopes to actually remember it. Remember the feeling. Yes, I do. Terrified of loosing it. I wish I could really explain why this means so much and is so important. And why it needs to be those dates, those moments, my vantage point.



Life breathed at me. Into me. Intoxicating. Intoxicated.




The only real solid[arity] left. And I just must see
it every breathing moment.


Fallen under the spell, and there is no where I'd rather be.

"Why Hello, Human Beings. Nice to See You Living and Breathing Up There"

Thats all for now. Just didn't want to forget that. Prof. Butler: Wills and Trusts. And oh what a shame, the bookstore's roof has caved in.

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[Later On...]

Trying my hardest to stick to the plan.

Not the going to class plan. That one isn't official.

I want so many things. Most of them can be bought, if only there was enough money in my world. Shallow? Yep. Materialistic? Sure is. But at least I'm not asking for rainbows or pink puppies and purple glitter kitties. Just because I think a monster rug is awesome doesn't mean anything.

And you think its sweet too. Dont lie.

Money Talks To Double Your Pleasure

Pop slides and unnecessary trills serve as blinders, eagerily handed and readily accepted by listeners. Counterfit. And just as a counterfit Benjamin spends easily and willingly, as soon as your presented with a legal Grant you notice what you've been missing and how dubbed you've been. The colors don't compare, and the attention to detail, no matter how "tried" could never match the real deal. Even if it is a lesser bill.

Finding a way to be your Grant.





Update: put in place in a bizonic kind of way. pianissimo, well enuciated, simple musical sort-of perfection. surprised and feeling a little guilty. just in the nick of time.

"Anything New Goes Straight Into the Mouth"

My latest Enterprise location happens to be at an "Executive Airport" and in a private airline's (is it an airline? company? airtraffic control company? whatever, I should know, but I dont) building. Looking out the windows to the all of the private jets you only see in celebmags with stars getting in and out of made me think of John Travolta and a magazine spread I saw of him once with his private plane. Oh, and Look Who's Talking 2. I loved those movies as a kid. So of course I half expected some celebrity with huge sunglasses and the typical Louis Vuitton luggage to walk through the automatic doors. Instead, after waiting in the heat for forever and content to not see anyone famous due to my sweaty-hat wearing-bright green gym short and disgusting hair appearance [I keep telling myself I need to be more presentable being that I do live in MIA now, and the general desire to be that girl whose hair and makeup is always perfect, but old habits die hard], I half-wittingly just sat and watched some guy in the same loafers my dad always used to wear get an ice-cream out of a vending machine and 3 couples have "new" conversation before what I assume was take one of those planes. Dressed in sweaters and boots (mind you, this is Miami), maybe they're headed to Colorado? To the North East? A man did walk in, wheeling his very sophisticated little carryon with a multiple directional wheeling radius, big dark sunglasses and all. Probably latin with money. If not, then European. Money assumed. All in all, uneventful. Though I do reccomend picking an Enterprise in a similar location if possible. I didn't see any tiny little horrible cars---with the types of cars they share the lot with (I don't think I've seen so many Range Rovers parked in one area) I'm betting its some sort of company policy. I got a brand new 2008 Chevy. Its no Land Rover but its most certainly no teal Kia so rickety and low to the ground that its sole purpose in existing truely must have been to instill in the driver the fear of God and forced reverence to the highway.


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P.S. Kahlua's Mudslides are nothing like Bailey's, and don't hold a candle to the hint of caramel. Don't let them fool you.

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where are you in my memory? who are you in my life? someone. who?

Who is still out there. confident W hasn't yet crossed my path. but who where are you?

"It Was Gone Right Then"

My eyes have such trouble
gathering whats right there
So hard not to see double
Oh. and. woe. wheres the despair.

Harder [Easier] to just look past
As if its not quite there
Must look through and by
Aches and pains dont last.

"You Could 'Cause You Can So You Do"

When one evens out the other gets louder, and but for no other reason than fear of abandonment, it begins to speak up again.
And I don't know what to do with them.
Whimsical vs. Vintage....they can exist together but neither likes to clutter up the territory with things they don't feel belong. The continuity is at risk and neither wants to conceed it. But they're both there.

Not sure who to let win. Or declare a defeat for all, which would mean a victory for both. Ahhh but at what cost?