All Kinds of Abuse

Someone is going to call me tomorrow and I've got to reject the hell out of him.
(and I know he is going to press me for "but whys?" and "but I just want a friend right now"-b.s.)
This is sick, but I'm excited about it. ONLY because I am going to pony up and say exactly what I need to say, and try my hardest not to pussy-foot around it.
I figure this is a big step in being solidly, consistently, directly honest with people.
I'm so tired of lying because I feel bad.

Thats not soooo crazy, right?

friendcardabuseissowrong.
i mean it.