Again?

Today Went::

1. read horoscope (hey, it pops up when I sign onto AIM, I can't help it):
[Someone may say something casually to you today, and even though the words might not be worth a second thought, the news can send you into a tailspin. Keep in mind that you are probably overreacting, based upon a past experience that was hurtful. This could be different, so it's a good idea to maintain a healthy perspective on anything you learn now.--Leo for 2/7]

2. have no idea what it means, forget it for the rest of the day.

3. check one of the sites I always go to. read post. post really says nothing extraordinary, but it means something that gets to me.

4. freak out over what the post-says-means-for me (its my half birthday, I can think of me).

5. write out the following as an spur-away message because that kind of reaction is better than letting my freak-out fester:
[Timing is everything.
But why does every-thing have to rely on timing?
Its not a science.
But we make it that way.
Do you ever catch your breath right before it gets knocked out of you? When you realize you're timing is off?]

5. computer signs back into AIM when I get home

6. realization sets in.

7. my parents/grandparents would be dissapointed. they'd say that when you want to see something it will appear. but I promise. thats not whats happening.