As far as the whole sleeping with conversation around me goes, I struggle and stuggle and struggle to keep awake. I'd rather fall asleep with the world happening around me than to fall asleep in the midst of a dawning nothing.





OH AND I'M SO PATHETIC. Lord knows how I fight it. But sometimes pathetic little piles of nothing come out.

GROSS in every single way.

EDIT: I saved this as draft originally, but I can't seem to remember what it was that I wanted to finish...or why the sudden burst of self-loathing, so I'll just leave it as it stands, even if even now the only thing that makes real sense is the first section. ah well, maybe another time I'll figure it out.